You know...
I hate bad movies. Tonight, Rich and I saw the worst movie ever, Napolean Dynamite. It was so bad, we wanted to walk out but we felt obligated to stay because we paid to see that stupidity. Thats the thing about bad movies though, TYPICALLY people go see movies on the hopes that they will be good (you don't go because you want to see a BAD movie) so you pay the ridiculous price of movies now, which is 8.50 for me, and expect wholesome or quality enjoyment and then you end up with wanting to walk out, but you don't want to because of the money you spent. Its ridiculous. Anyway, the theatre was pretty crowded, which was completely surprising. Especially considering how BAD the movie was. Nothing could of saved it.
I digress though. Lately I've been seeing ghosts and memories of my past. Today I went on Muhlenberg's website and I just got hit with a feeling of missing it. Not even just missing my friends and wishing that they lived closer, but missing the campus, the food and the ridiculous rules or slowness to technology (like how you could register online) you still had to go to the office. Or the network that permanently broke a few of my computers, because NOTHING would run on it. Things like that. But I actually felt "college-sick" if that is a feeling-and it is really the first time in TWO years that I felt like that. Sad. And I don't even KNOW anyone that still goes to the school.
Right now, I am also remembering my Australia trip that I took when I was 17, and had to be one of the best summers of my life, well, discounting this one where I actually got married! But I remember parts so vividly, and then others just seem like a fading memory. Where I question myself if it really happened? Or was it memory falsification over the years? Did I want my memory to be complete happiness, and I just forgot all the "bad stuff". I don't know-and the thing about memories is, they are all yours. I mean you make memories with people there,a nd I made A LOT. But everyone's memory is different, or seen in a different light. Maybe what I felt towards people (or remember what I felt towards people) isn't actually true. Its just that over the years, 7 to be exact, so many things can change or even differ. Your memory isn't the same the day the event happen, and you chose to "forget" the bad and only remember the good. And that saddens me a lot.
But yet, I've been thinking like that a lot today. Perhaps it is me being sick with a cold, or some other minor delusions, but I can't help but wonder what memories that I have are ACTUALLY true and which are misconstrued. Its really bothering me. And saddens me greatly.
-Jordyn
I digress though. Lately I've been seeing ghosts and memories of my past. Today I went on Muhlenberg's website and I just got hit with a feeling of missing it. Not even just missing my friends and wishing that they lived closer, but missing the campus, the food and the ridiculous rules or slowness to technology (like how you could register online) you still had to go to the office. Or the network that permanently broke a few of my computers, because NOTHING would run on it. Things like that. But I actually felt "college-sick" if that is a feeling-and it is really the first time in TWO years that I felt like that. Sad. And I don't even KNOW anyone that still goes to the school.
Right now, I am also remembering my Australia trip that I took when I was 17, and had to be one of the best summers of my life, well, discounting this one where I actually got married! But I remember parts so vividly, and then others just seem like a fading memory. Where I question myself if it really happened? Or was it memory falsification over the years? Did I want my memory to be complete happiness, and I just forgot all the "bad stuff". I don't know-and the thing about memories is, they are all yours. I mean you make memories with people there,a nd I made A LOT. But everyone's memory is different, or seen in a different light. Maybe what I felt towards people (or remember what I felt towards people) isn't actually true. Its just that over the years, 7 to be exact, so many things can change or even differ. Your memory isn't the same the day the event happen, and you chose to "forget" the bad and only remember the good. And that saddens me a lot.
But yet, I've been thinking like that a lot today. Perhaps it is me being sick with a cold, or some other minor delusions, but I can't help but wonder what memories that I have are ACTUALLY true and which are misconstrued. Its really bothering me. And saddens me greatly.
-Jordyn
posted by Stareared Kid @ 11:53 PM
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